Love, Curiosity, Freckles and Doubt

Wednesdays' Words & Lyrics: Love by Musiq

2012-02-15T23:25:00.000-08:00

Love
So many things I've got to tell you
But I'm afraid I don't know how
Cause there's a possibility
You'll look at me differently
Love
Ever since the first moment I spoke your name
From then on I knew that by you being in my life
Things were destined to change cause

Love
So many people use your name in vain
Love
Those have faith in you sometimes go astray
Love
Through all the ups and downs the joy and hurt
Love
For better or worse I still will choose you first
Many days I've longed for you
Wanting you
Hoping for the chance to get to know you
Longing for your kiss
For your touch, your feel, your essence
Many nights I've cried from the things you do
Felt like I could die from the thought of losing you
I know that you're real
With no doubts and no fears
And no questions

Love
So many people use your name in vain
Love
Those have faith in you sometimes go astray
Love
Through all the ups and downs the joy and hurt
Love
For better or worse I still will choose you first

At first you didn't mean that much to me
But now I know that you're all I need
The world looks so brand new to me
Now that I found love
Everyday I live for you
And everything that I do
I do it for you
What I say is how I feel so believe it's true
You got to know I'm true

Love
So many people use your name in vain
Love
Those have faith in you sometimes go astray
Love
Through all the ups and downs the joy and hurt
Love
For better or worse I still will choose you first

Love
So many people use your name in vain
Love
Those have faith in you sometimes go astray
Love
Through all the ups and downs the joy and hurt
Love
For better or worse I still will choose you first

Rest In Paradise Brothers and Sisters

2012-02-15T11:49:00.000-08:00

Black History: Aretha Franklin

2012-02-15T10:46:00.000-08:00

Aretha Franklin

Franklin’s music and civil rights involvement cannot be separated for it was through music, which Franklin was able to reach out to so many and empower those who had felt so long oppressed. Aretha Franklin first became connected with the civil rights movement through her father, Reverend C.L. Franklin. Rev. Franklin was an influential preacher who traveled the country as well as recorded a weekly sermon for the radio station, WLAC, which reached sixty-five percent of the African-American population. It was these same tours that Aretha would begin her singing career. Rev. Franklin would also introduce Aretha to Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. starting a lifelong friendship between the two. Franklin was not actively heading demonstrations or participating in sit-ins, but she was able to do her part and use her talent to help the movement. She would numerous times perform at rallies with the King, lending her voice and fame to pull in crowds. Her own sense of pride and her dignified stance, she represented the new black woman of the late 1960s. Franklin’s own sound and present were enough to reflect the ideas of the movement and were what caused her to become a notable figure in the cause.

It was Franklin's soulful sound, which would become the driving anthem of the civil rights movement or as poet Nikki Giovanni, who is also a Fiskite, put it “the voice of the civil rights movement, the voice of the black America".

In 2008, Franklin was honored as MusiCares "Person of the Year", two days prior to the 50th Annual Grammy Awards, where she was awarded her 18th career Grammy. Franklin was personally asked by then newly-elected President Barack Obama to perform at his inauguration singing "My Country 'tis of Thee". In 2010, Franklin received an honorary music degree from Yale University.

In 1966, 24 year-old Aretha Franklin struggled at Columbia Records. Had she quit searching for a better fit, her career could have been over. That same year, she went to Atlantic and found not only success, but her true voice. Columbia, which couldn't decide to truly believe in her or her music, conveniently began releasing (and continues to release) her music from its vaults after her success at Atlantic.

Lesson: DON'T GIVE UP! YOUR VOICE MAY BE THE VOICE OF THE CENTURY!

once upon a time he hurt me...

2012-02-14T10:00:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time he hurt me, though initially it was not intentional. It happens when he wasn’t strong enough to pass on the temptation of her. She wanted him and he was so struck by his own ego that he didn’t pay attention to the set up. I told him to watch out for her. He told me that I was acting green though all I saw was red in protection to my love. He gave into her though of his own choice and they created another. A life that was not mine to share. The cheat wasn’t the worst of the hurt. It was more so that fact that he didn’t heed the warning and mistook it as a jealous girlfriend which I was not. You see women (though people in general) often disregard the warnings. I’ve been on the other side of this scenario. We sometimes want what we want when we want it with no regard to the included parties. She knew he was not available and she also knew he was into his ego. She played on that and he allowed himself to be blinded by self centered curiosity. Just the one time they both concluded but that it was all that it took. The maximum side of hurt was that he was not man enough to tell me about the result of his discretion which she was all too pleased to share at 16 weeks. The snide delivery of news made my neck hurt and my face hot. My blood boiled and fury ran through my veins. She felt that I needed to know and since he hadn’t spoke of it she believed she to be the one. He was angry but said we could move forward as if it was much to do about nothing but his baby was not my concern and it was done. He made a choice which not only changed his life but mine too without so much of a choice for me. It hurt and he hurt me. He crumpled my love like the condom package that was supposedly used. I could not and would not be able to continue with us because it hurt too bad.

Once upon a time he hurt me, though he didn’t see it that way and it wasn’t even his intent. He had a thing for fast money and street projects that was far greater than his desire to be the man he spoke of being for me. I never tried to change him but attempted to uplift and encourage him that the streets won’t continue to love him. He did his best to keep his secular life away from me and when we were together I could feel his potential followed by multiples. He was good. Damn good. The love I had for him was blinded by his potential and my blurred point of view kept me satisfied until it didn’t. His struggles were unfamiliar. His desires weren’t his ambition. Constantly investing in so many and never in or for himself. If only he would but he never did. There were points of discontent and fear when he didn’t answer his phone or when the phone would ring with an unfamiliar number. It was not the life I wished but it was my choice to stick around and the judgment behind that decision caused sleepless nights and a supreme yearning for more of my regard and his love. At the end of the day I couldn’t love him more than he loved himself. I couldn’t continue to want more for him than he wanted for himself. He had to decide what he was worth to himself before he continued to fill me with empty promises of letting go. I could not be the side chick any longer and I couldn’t compete with his hustle. He chose to do as he had done for so long and I wasn’t worth his ambition.

Once upon a time he hurt me, though he was only thinking of himself to be better for me. However it hurt nonetheless. After many years of life lived we were reconnected. I had no initial expectation but figured at least we could spread wide for old time sake. We caught up, spoke and decided to rekindle an old flame. It was hot, sweet, passionate and very honest. He shared his desires and asked me to be open to the future. Initially hesitant I gave in and us became we. We went fast and hard. He was hard fast and he deeply stroked my mind multiple times in each and every session. We began to speak of the future and I exhaled believing that God had finally heard my heart blessing me with His Adam to my Eve. I was in. He was in. I began to fall in. Somewhere he halted. “I love you but I don’t think that I am in love with you.” Those words left his lips and slowly serenaded my ear before entering and making connection with my brain. I felt my heart drop before tuning into the rest of the verbiage supporting his initial statement. There were several concrete details and facts supporting his feelings. There was no wrong or right. He was all in his head and was not able to be with me and work on him too. Though I understood and I knew this circumstance was not due to anything that I had done in particular. It hurt. It hurt badly. Those tears came from deep within and the sting of the words spoken caught me off guard though there was no malicious intent. I felt broken. How can one be so full of love one moment and then decide to make a decision that impacts us for me with no regard to my heart. Selfish he admitted but it was how he felt and I respect that to an extent. We as people are fully entitled to feel as we feel. I try not to minimize how one feels whether I agree or not. There was no true comfort. I began to feel all my emotions come to the surface. I cried. Cried hard exploding heartbreak, hurt, anger mixed with overwhelming frustration. I cried so hard that breath couldn’t catch up to the tears. My chest wanted to burst open to free the emotions, yet instead they trickled slowly holding me captive to relive his words over and over in my head. The thing about being all in my heart and not in my head is that the break is paralyzing. I don’t want to feel regret especially after I was at a point where I was wide open and feeling completely free to explore all of loves options with him in mind. I love him and he doesn’t love me enough to fight for us.

Most great love stories or shall I say fairytales begin with Once upon a time. Followed by some overcoming circumstance where the conclusion only ends happily ever after. I would be lying if I said that my love for love doesn’t makes me want to believe in happily ever after. I still want to believe in fairytales and sometimes it’s hard to feel the joys of love when hurt sneaks in the mix. I still believe and I have learned that every experience is character building and will bring one step closer to be prepared for the love of my life. I just have to stay open and one day my once upon at time will have my very own happy ending.

Happy Love Day

2012-02-14T09:16:00.000-08:00

Every February 14, across the United States and in other places around the world, candy, flowers and gifts are exchanged between loved ones, all in the name of St. Valentine. But who is this mysterious saint, and where did these traditions come from?

Did you know that nearly 150 million cards are exchanged each Valentine's Day?

Or that more than 40,000 American are employed at chocolate companies?

Authors, poets and playwrights have been trying to capture love in words for thousands of years. Their work speaks to the enduring power of love across the ages of human history.

I have learned not to worry about love;

but to honor its coming with all my heart.
- Alice Walker

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. -Helen Keller

Shakespeare wrote 154 sonnets dealing with love, time, beauty and mortality.

Love does not dominate; it cultivates.
- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place.
- Zora Neale Hurston

Love is like quicksilver in the hand. Leave the fingers open and it stays.

Clutch it, and it darts away.
- Dorothy Parker

Approximately 150 million Valentine's Day cards are exchanged annually, making Valentine's Day the second most popular card-sending holiday after Christmas

Black History: Fisk! My Alma Mater

2012-02-10T15:30:00.000-08:00

I have mentioned it before but let me firmly state that I am so proud that I am a product of an HBCU. Historically black colleges and universities (HBCUs) are institutions of higher education in the United States that were established before 1964 with the intention of serving the black community. There are 105 historically black colleges and universities (HBCUs) in the United States today, including public and private, two-year and four-year institutions, medical schools and community colleges. All are or were in the former slave states and territories of the U.S. except for Central State University (Ohio), Cheyney University of Pennsylvania, Lewis College of Business (Detroit, Michigan), Lincoln University (Pennsylvania), Wilberforce University (Ohio), and now-defunct Western University (Kansas). Some closed during the 20th century due to competition, the Great Depression and financial difficulties after operating for decades.

Fisk University is a historically black university founded in 1866 in Nashville, Tennessee to educate newly freed slaves of all ages, Fisk University -- originally known as the Fisk Free Colored School -- would eventually become a premiere liberal arts institution. The school owes it origins to both the hunger of ex-slaves for formal education and the missionary zeal of a group of Northern whites raised in abolitionist families who dedicated themselves to the education of African Americans. At a time when recently freed blacks were establishing makeshift schools all over the South (making do with abandoned buildings and untrained teachers) the opening of Fisk in Nashville was greeted with tremendous excitement. Within the first four months of the school's existence, Fisk enrolled nine hundred students. The world-famous Fisk Jubilee Singers started as a group of students who performed to earn enough money to save the school at a critical time of financial shortages. They toured to raise funds to build the first building for the education of freedmen. They succeeded and funded construction of the renowned Jubilee Hall, now a designated National Historic Landmark.

· Fisk University is one of four Historically Black Colleges and Universities to earn a tier one ranking on the list of Best National Liberal Arts Colleges in the 2011 edition of Best Colleges by U.S. News and World Reports. Of the 1,400 institutions ranked nationwide, only 246 institutions earned tier one status.

· Fisk is on Parade Magazine's "A List" for colleges and universities who offer both a Bachelor's and Master's degree.

· In 2010, the Washington Monthly ranked Fisk 29th among America's Best Liberal Arts Colleges.

· According to the Princeton Review, Fisk University is one of America's 373 Best Colleges & Universities.

Random Relationship Thought...

2012-02-10T09:00:00.000-08:00

When I thought about being in love I didn’t know it was going to be you. I didn’t know it was going to feels so good and hurt so bad. I didn’t realize that there was a beginning and end. I thought that love was suppose to be forever and that it was only going to grow. Sure, I expected there to be some rough times sprinkled in there but I felt that our foundation would allow us to endure any and all tribulations. What I thought and believed doesn’t seem as clear as it once was. My thought of loving you has changed my perception of what is for me to be in love. Maybe just silly me.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #30: A photo of me today and 3 things that have happened in the last 30 days

2012-02-09T08:40:00.000-08:00

Three things that has happened in the last 30 days...

I found some new bloggers that I enjoy reading and creating new relationships

Found my inspiration again through be open to new experiences

I have a new crush - we shall see what words come from this...

I guess now that this challenge is over I actually need to write something. I have a few ideas but Isuppose that I will become alot more open and honest about how I see situations that are currently going in my life. Many of the new bloggers that I have began following are very honest about their current dealings and I admire that. I am encouraged to do so.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #29: Something that I could never get tired of doing

2012-02-07T09:21:00.000-08:00

Love is more than an emotion. It is in our existence. In our hopes, dreams and all ambitions. If you love something its worth it. Its hard work, dedication, foundation. It's the beginning and the end. We all love in some shape or fashion. Its love of self, others, careers, education, materials etc. There is always something to love. Love feels good, bags, hurts so good or can hurt so bad. Love is felt, made and created. When one gets tired of loving, there is not much left to their existence.

I am nothing without LOVE.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #28: MY Favorite Movie

2012-02-06T15:07:00.000-08:00

Say, baby... can I be Your slave? I've got to admit girl you're the shit girl... and I'm digging you like a grave. Now, do they call you Daughter to the Spinning Pulsar... or maybe Queen of 10,000 moons? Sister to the Distant yet Rising Star? Is your name Yemaya? Oh, hell no. Its got to be Oshun. Oooh, is that a smile me put on your face, child... wide as a field of jasmine and clover? Talk that talk, honey. Walk that walk, money. High on legs that'll spite Jehovah. Shit. Who am I? It's not important. But me they call me brother to the night. And right now... I'm the blues in your left thigh... trying to become the funk in your right. Who am I? I'll be whoever you say? But right now I'm the sight-raped hunter... blindly pursuing you as my prey. And I just want to give you injections... of sublime erections... and get you to dance to my rhythm... make you dream archetypes... of black angels in flight... upon wings of distorted, contorted... metaphoric jizm. Come on slim. Fuck your man. I ain't worried about him. It's you who I want to step to my scene. 'cause rather the deal with the fallacy... of this dry-ass reality... I'd rather dance and romance your sweet ass in a wet dream. Who am I? Well, they call me Brother to the night. And right now I'm the blues in your left thigh... trying to become the funk in your right. Is that all right?

Poetry is the possibility of language.

All of this people running around here jumping, skipping, falling in love…falling in love ain’t shit. Somebody talk to PLEASE about how to stay there…

You always want what you want when you want it. Why is everything so urgent with you?
Let me tell you somethin'. This here, right now, at this very moment, is all that matters to me. I love you. That's urgent like a motherfucker

When a man gets a hard on, you know where the blood come from, right? You know where the blood come from, right? His head and his feet. So A - he's stupid and B - he can't run.

people who say love does not exist have actually exceeded the possibility

Romance is dead is what they said while sittin around cheating at pool the very last frame of this nine ball game, the cat who had the date on the top of the empire state is the one who got hustled like a fool

ROMANCE…

is about the possibility of the thing.
From the time when you first meet some fine ass woman…
To the time you make love to her.
From the time you first propose to her.
To the time you say i do. When people who have been together for a long time say that the romance is dead….nuh uh……they just EXHAUSTED THE POSSIBILITIES

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #27: First 10 Songs in my IPOD (music player) from shuffle

2012-02-04T10:36:00.000-08:00

First 10 Songs after shuffle

1. Spaghetti Junction – OutKast

2. Something – Musiq

3. Hey You - Floetry

4. Im DIggin You (like an old soul record)

5. Didn’t You Know – Erykah Badu

6. I Rep The West – Ice Cube

7. Never Give You Up – Raphael Saddiq

8. Electric Relaxation - Tribe Called Quest

9. Rolling In the Deep – Adele

10. Closet Freak - CeeLo

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #25: Something that I miss

2012-02-01T11:04:00.000-08:00

Something that I miss...

2 years 6 months 26 days

RIP Daddy Freckles

Wednesday's Words & Lyrics: Love Still Good by Chico Debarge

2012-02-01T10:46:00.000-08:00

LOVE STILL GOOD - CHICO DEBARGE

Is the love still good (Still good, baby)
Is the love still good (Still good, baby)
Still good, baby (You gotta know)
You know I'm free
Out on parole
Just got my papers, honey
I'm really home
So what's going on, suga
How is your life, baby
It's so good to be back
You're still fine as the day we met
Oh, I heard you got babies, that's cool
Do they play at the park where we used to make love after dark
Is the love still good
Is the love still good (Still good, baby, uh)
Still good, baby (You know, you wanna know, baby, oh oh)
(Still good, baby, baby)
I didn't know
I was your first
I was your soldier, baby
Everything real
But you found another
And I understand, lover
'Cause I lost my brother
From the war on drugs
Got so much, baby
I could offer you
I'm a man, not the boy that I was
So why gamble with life in the streets when I got you at home, baby
Is the love still good (Oh, baby)
Is the love still good (Still good, baby)
Still good, baby (Wanna know, baby, gotta know, baby)
Ooh
Hey ey
Still good, baby
Is love still good, babe
Is the love still good (Still good, baby)
Is the love still good (Still good, still good, baby)
Still good, baby (Tell you that, still good, baby, still good, baby)
I remember back in the day
We used to vibe around the way
You told me you loved me, wish I had stayed
Right there in your arms underneath the stars
We still made beautiful love
Every night, every day
We would wake up
To a brighter morning, baby
You were here for me
Why did you walk out on me, baby
When I went down
When I went down, baby
I still remember every night in your basement
There in the dark, we made love
Your lovin' was so sweet, reminiscin'
We got much time, baby, to catch up, oh, lady
So let's take our time, baby
Get to know each other all over again
I'm not the same boy, I'm a man, lady lover
Oh, lover, lover
Oh, baby, do you still wind it up like you used to back in the day

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #24: Whats in my purse

2012-02-01T00:40:00.000-08:00

What's in MY purse?

well....

my wallet, everyday makeup bag, sunglasses, a mirror, petroleum jelly, earbuds, a brush, my notebook (never know when writing will come - inspiration).

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #23: 20 Facts about ME

2012-01-30T00:08:00.000-08:00

1. I do not eat gravy

2. I have freckles

3. I write because it makes me feel closer to Daddy (RIP)

4. I love to kiss

5. I miss music videos (I use to love to memorize the dance routines)

6. I miss being a bartender

7. Ive dated “others” but have not ever pursued a relationship with a non black man but I have thought about it [WHITE MEN CANT JUMP]

8. I always have a notebook in my purse just in case something said or heard is meaningful for reference

9. I love shoes (the higher the sexier)

10. Snickers are a point of weakness for me

11. I think about sex often (like a dude)

12. I’m an EAGLES fan

13. I love music with real lyrics

14. I enjoy brunch with Mimosas

15. I miss Tribe Called Quest

16. I graduated from the illustrious Fisk University (HBCUs ROCK!!!)

17. Avid Coffee Drinker

18. I still believe in Chilvary

19. I’m 32 with these awesome freckles and no children (I don’t think that I have a clock or it needs battery)

20. dope, awesome, right and word are in my general vocabulary

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #22: My day by bullet

2012-01-29T03:44:00.000-08:00

My Day By Bullet

Ø Woke up in my right mind (which is nice because some days are honestly better than others. However this morning was awesome) Thankful that God gave me another chance to try to get it right or at least learn something that will make me better.

Ø Got myself together and went to work

Ø Tweeted on my way to work. (One of my attractive male followers randomly tweets off hash tags regarding himself but us yet to respond a response.

Ø Thought about him

Ø Thought about sex

Ø Got work and earned my keep today.

Ø My coworker brought me some bakes ziti and spinach for lunch today and it was AWESOME.

Ø Thought about something sexual

Ø Stop by CVS on my way home (I have a strong dislike for papery toilet paper and when the 2 ply is shedding (CHEAP) so upgrading the tissue was necessary. I wanted to get some wine but one of the chick’s that worked there was so busy tearing all the sale tabs off that I didn’t quite know what I wanted to get that would have been on sale so I opted out.

Ø Thought about him

Ø Sexy little thought or four

Ø Purposely missed a call from a stalker (I have got to stop giving my number out)

Ø Got 2 tacos and a chicken sandwich from jack n the box (only ate one taco and my chicken sandwich was dry.)

Ø Sat for sec and then put some clothes on to go over my mom’s bffs house for drinks and to celebrate their birthday again (their birthday was on Monday but they still celebrating).

Ø Heard someone say something very profound – “a person has to change or they will stop growing” (I’m going to write something of relevancy upon the subject – stay tuned)

Ø Thought about him

Ø Before we went over there I had a mini photo shoot via my laptop using a new program on my computer (good times) I need to better use more the functions/programs that are on my computer.

Ø Felt sexy enough to consider some sort of and then changer my thoughts all together

Ø Wined and socialized

Ø Thought about him

Ø Thought about sex

Ø Thought about sex with him

Ø Picked out what I am wearing to church in the AM

Ø Reviewed all the pictures from the night

Ø Checked my email/ facebook/twitter ( not really in that order)

Ø Realized that I hadn’t posted this post for the challenge

Ø Thinking about taking myself to sleep

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #21: A Picture of Something that Makes Me Happy

2012-01-28T01:08:00.000-08:00

Something that makes me happy is...

CHOCOLATE

I cannot go wrong with it at all.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #20: The Meaning Behind my Blog

2012-01-27T10:40:00.000-08:00

INVENTORY

Four be the things I am wiser to know: Idleness, sorrow, a friend, and a foe.

Four be the things I’d been better without: Love, curiosity, freckles, and doubt.

Three be the things I shall never attain: Envy, content, and sufficient champagne.

Three be the things I shall have till I die: Laughter and hope and a sock in the eye.

~ Dorothy Parker ~

However these freckles are pretty damn awesome! I love love and the journey to receiving love of my own. There is so much to be curious about in life and there is always some sort of doubt. All in which make life worth living.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #19: Another Picture of Me

2012-01-26T10:30:00.000-08:00

Me looking into Me.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #18: Something I Crave

2012-01-25T23:48:00.000-08:00

Something I Crave

2 years ago my daddy died. A week after we buried him, I lost my job. I picked up part time jobs and worked out all the time to hold it together. That is the year that I turned 30 but it did not seem to happy. 6 months after that I moved back to Los Angeles from Atlanta. My mother said that I needed to deal with everything and get myself back together. Thankful for my mother. My heart has been broken yet to mend but the days have gotten easier. I do not cry everyday anymore but when I do cry... Some days are just better than others. Once back in LA, I worked a plethora of temp jobs while going to countless interviews with no avail. Then I did not work for 6 months. Nothing. Not working and being alone will play on your psyche. I ended up getting a permanent part time job which I am grateful to have but it is not ideal. The struggle is a little different. However the light is now flickering. My living situation has changed and its for the best but now I lack space but its for the best. New Year's Eve my paternal grandmother died. In that instant I felt that heartbreak again. My chest hurts and the pain lingers. I was unable to attend due to my finances but I was able to go half on my sister's ticket which was the brighter side. right? I am glad that I spoke to her and she knew that I loved her. She told me how much she loved me too. I didnt know then but now I see it was the final goodbye. I wish that I would have been able to speak to my daddy and tell him that I love him ( amongst other things). I wish there was some sort of goodbye. I hold some guilt (which use to be alot of guilt) with my grief that I sometimes dont let me off the hook for. There are moments when I feel more than inadequate if there is such a thing. I am not utilizing my potential. I am not where I figure that I am suppose to be in my life - well more so where I want to be since apparently this is my plan. My emotions are up and down and I sometimes feel the need to pull away from those that love me most. I know there has got to be light at the end but as of now its just flickering. Of course there are people that are going through a lot more and have a lot less but sometimes I cant care about them because I am only thinking about me. (kind of ugly and selfish, huh?) Sometimes in reflection I wonder what God really has in store for me and what it is that He wants me to learn. Ive been in this holding pattern for a long time and yet in still I am still blessed. (thankful) I sometimes I am not able to be thankful that He chose me to go through this all right now bute in the large scope of things I am. sometimes dont know what to pray for so I just thank Him. My HOPE gives me FAITH that all shall come pass. Learning to PATIENT though sometimes I feel like I am failing. Honestly right now all I crave is PEACE.

Wednesday's Words & Lyrics: Your Hands by Marsha Ambrosius

2012-01-25T09:48:00.000-08:00

"Your Hands"

Your hands hold the small of my back
My body reacts yeah
You know just what I need and where to be (your hands)
Lead the way, I'll follow you wherever you lay
'Cause here up high, here we fly together you and I
Oh why must you lead me on if I'm want you want just say it
Don't lie.
Here's my heart now don't you break it baby
I'll leave it here in your hands
Said my heart I leave it here in your hands
My broken heart I leave in your hands
I leave it here in your hands
Don't you break it baby

Kiss here on my lips I've never felt like this
I let down my guard and then I fall for you
Here my cry, I'm yearning for you deep inside
Let me reach for the stars, be where you are
All we can do is try baby

Baby you do anything to satisfy me baby
And I will give you anything you need
Baby when you touch me there with your hands
I love it when you touch me baby (your hands)
Caress me up and down make me say (your hands)

I leave my love your hands
My love, my soul
I leave my broken heart in your hands
So baby wont you save me
My love I leave it in your hands baby

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #17: My Celebrity Crush

2012-01-24T11:44:00.000-08:00

George Wilson

#37 (Strong Safety) Buffalo Bills

Had a decent season.

FINE

from Kentucky

FINE

Went Arkansas

was in Marsha Ambrosius video Late Night, Early Morning

I sure would.

Tag, Now Im it…

2012-01-24T02:29:00.000-08:00

Well… Starrla tagged me so here we go.

Rules:

1.   You must post 11 random things yourself.
2.   Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.
3.   Create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.

4. Go to their blog and tell them that you've tagged them.

Let's get started!

MY 11 RANDOM THINGS

1. I always notice new freckles on my face.

2. I love hard

3. I am obsessed with bright colors (this season of fashion is in my favor)

4. Bartender is one of my professions

5. I hella love mascara

6. I prefer men to have facial hair

7. I don’t like to polish my finger nails because I feel like they sweat

8. I enjoy watching South Park and Family Guy

9. I enjoy eating pancakes at all hours of the day especially at night when I need something sweet.

10. I generally like to get “designer” coffee from TJ Maxx, Marshalls or Ross

11.I’m crafty (I make earrings, pillows and love any sort of picture)

Questions from Starrla…

1. What inspires you? Soul Music and love of course

2. What is your earliest childhood memory? When I was 3 my parents came home with a baby one day and I thought it was pretty cool though I do not recall my mother being pregnant to this day.

3. What is your favorite thing to cook/eat? I love to cook and I make an awesome pot of greens and I love to eat fries.

4. What's the name of your favorite book? Coffee Will Make You Black

5. Do you remember your first love? Yeah and that is sort of that.

6. What is your dream job? I would love to be fashion stylist and considering pursuing it.

7. Do you have any phobias? Elevators (getting stuck)

8. If you had to lose one of your five senses, which one would it be? Uhm… well... If I have to choose 1, I am going to have to say sight - I would like to believe that I would be able to have a better undertanding of words if I could hear them better with my eyes closed (lol)

9. Are you left handed or right handed? RIGHT

10. Do you have any hidden talent? Uhm…

11. If you won $500,000 what would you do with it? Pay off my student loans and any current debt, buy a car and 5 pairs of awesome shoes, stocks & savings.

My Freckled Questions…

1. What’s your favorite cereal?

2. How was your first kiss?

3. What is one of your guilty pressure?

4. What is your favorite song?

5. Who’s your Celebrity Crush?

6. What is one thing that you fear?

7. What inspires you to write?

8. What is something that you want to write about and havent?

9. What are you tempted by most?

10.Television or Radio, what’s your preference?

11.What’s your favorite Ice cream?

TAG NOW YOURE IT ( I dont have 11 but these I actually read that Starrla hadnt already tagged)

sweetinsanityandsarcasm.blogspot.com

http://msjstar1275.blogspot.com/

speakwritelove.wordpress.com

www.loving-mahogany.com

ioncesawforever.blogspot.com

www.unscriptedmusings.com

www.ifcurvescouldtalk.com

30 Day Blog Challege Day #16: A photo of me and my family

2012-01-23T23:57:00.000-08:00

THIS IS A PHOTO OF ME AND MY FAMILY

(From Left to Right):

My Maternal Grandmother, My Mother, Me and My Sister

4 Generations of Black Women

now I am all caught up... Again, I apologize for the delay

HAPPY MONDAY!!!

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #15: Something I do not leave my house with... (late edition)

2012-01-23T23:31:00.000-08:00

I DO NOT (Well, I try my best not to ever) leave my house without earrings. Earrings make me feel completed. I cannot stand the feeling of being out and realizing that I forgot my earrings - AHHHHH!!! It makes me feel naked. I even have my earrings up and easily available so that I do not forget but should I happen to walk out of the house without any earrings I keep a spare at work and some studs in my wallet. If you stay ready, you never have to get ready.

This is some of my awesome collection. It goes all the way down the wall.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #14: A TV Show I'm Currently Addicted to...

2012-01-23T22:09:00.000-08:00

Sooooo.... I am a little late. The weekend was a bit much for me and I ended up being very busy.

So here is to catchin up

Well, Im curerntly addicted to Hawaii Five O

I am so much in love with all of the characters and I will not miss it at all. The technology is ridiculous. The characters are all dead on and I cannot be mad about filming the show in Hawaii.

Dear Daddy, I miss you

2012-01-22T01:00:00.000-08:00

Dear Daddy,
I often feel alone since you have been gone. It seems to be a constant conflict. I cannot replace duplicate create. There’s so much that I wish that I could change. I wish that I was there. I still harvest some of the guilt of not being there. I just really miss you. There are so many things that I want to talk to you about and things that I would love to have your feedback on. Look you in your face and see my reflection in you knowing that there is nothing but love behind our eyes.

Sometimes I sit and wonder what it would be like to hear your voice. What it is would be lie to truly listen to your questions in a conversation that make me pull from the inside to solve any of life’s dilemmas. I would give anything to have a moment with you right now. Its ironic how much you want something when you know there is no way that it is possible. I suppose that is just instilled in humans. Sometimes I sit in front of the mirror staring at your image looking back at me hoping to just hear your voice for a moment. It’s amazing how much I look like you as I get older. Often in that moment I wish that it was really you.

I know it has been 2 years but the pain of heartbreak is still on me. I am not crying everyday anymore and I accept that you are gone but once Grandma died this overwhelming feeling of hurt has been on me. I can’t really describe it or really have the words to express it. It just hurts and sometimes my heart just hurts. I’m sad. I miss you. I miss grandma. I need to continue to grieve but it just seems to be a bit much for me. I just feel like it’s one of those times when crying may not be helpful. Honestly, it all makes me feel kind of crazy that I am still redefining me after all this time. I suppose you being gone is just not one of those things that you just get over. I love you and really want you to be proud of me. I want you to know that I am trying to be a better person, better woman. I want you to know that I am tired, frustrated and often feel very much alone with all my feelings. I feel like you are the only one that would be able to understand. I miss you daddy.

I love you,

Your Freckled Daughter

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #13: MY Favorite Musician and Why?

2012-01-21T14:50:00.000-08:00

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My Favorite Musician is Jill Scott. She is simply melodically wonderfully blessed with her words. I have every album and even the live versions. I have seen her in concert a few times and I just love her. She is one of those people that I feel like I can feel her spirit in every song and is my friend in my head. Jill always seems to come from and honest place without telling all her business. I just love her.

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30 Blog Challenge Day #12: A Photograph of the town I live in

2012-01-20T14:00:00.000-08:00

My home town is Los Angeles.

Home of almost 4 million residents, a number of larger corporate headquarters, Lakers, Angels, Clippers, Dodgers, Kings, Galaxy etc., Sunset Strip, beaches & palm trees, Disneyland, Universal Studios, Six Flags Magic Mountain, Getty Museum, Hollywood Bowl, Staple Center, Rose Bowl, Roscoe's Chicken & Waffles, Home of the 1984 Summer Olympics, Captial Records, Nokia and Kodak Theatres and so much more...

Check my Ode to the Hood: Respiration

So much on my mind I just can't recline

Breathe in, inhale vapors from bright stars that shine
Breathe out, weed smoke retrace the skyline

Freckles' Thought for this Day.... Looking Within

2012-01-20T10:53:00.000-08:00

Looking Within
We are each born with a limitless capacity for pleasure and enjoyment... -Sondra Ray

Relationships do not just happen. No matter how we meet our mate or who makes the introduction, we create all the relationships we experience. We each have the capacity to bring ourselves the exact relationship we want. Unfortunately, most of us are not willing to do the work. We must begin the work by looking at the "self" and getting clear about how it feels. We cannot expect to attract a loving, generous mate if we are angry and withholding. We must stop blaming the past for our condition now. Wherever we are, what we have or don't have is no one's fault but our own. If by chance someone else made a contribution to the mess we were creating, forgive them the mess and move on. Finally, we must give thanks for all we have been; all we have had; all we are becoming. When we take the limits, restrictions and fears off our hearts, our cup of love will run over.

Today's Mantra: I will look at me before I look for love.

Kind of Love (Musically Inspired)

2012-01-19T23:05:00.000-08:00

kind of love: musically inspired

A RIBBON IN THE SKY that MAKES ME HAPPIER THAN THE MORNING SUN or a FULL MOON that makes me feel like a NATURAL WOMAN

Kind of love.

Feeling your BODY AND SOUL all BETWEEN THE SHEETS TIL THE COPS COME KNOCKIN in our NO ORDINARY LOVE

Kind of love.

SOMETHING IN MY HEART that makes me WEAK because this LOVE WONT LET ME WAIT

Kind of love.

LOVE ME IN A SPECIAL WAY which makes me DANGEROUSLY IN LOVE with you in a SPEECHLESS kind of way when I can do is SAY YES

Kind of love.

CLOSER to my dreams it makes me wanna share THIS BODY THAT LOVES YOU ANY TIME, ANY PLACE

Kind of love

JUST ME AND YOU for ALL MY LIFE that makes me feel as if YOU COMPLETE ME with no RESENTMENT CAUSE I LOVE YOU

Wednesday's Words & Lyrics: Call Me by Me'Shell Ndege Ocello

2012-01-18T13:39:00.000-08:00

Call Me

Dial the 7 digits, It's quite simple I'll  be there in a hurry  Jack be quick  Jack be nimble Call me up when you  feel the need to talk When words  aren't of the essence I'll soothe you with my presence  A kiss here and there from head to toe Just call me up when you want more You can be king for a day I'll be your queen let me treat  you that way When you need me  baby, yeah! Just call me Are you into this If not we can do that 'cause when we get together it's like Lena Horne  singin 'Stormy weather" We can get  loose and kinky Be my teddy bear,  forget your every care  the  M-E-S-H-E-E-L and I aim to please your every little fantasy You can be king for a day I'll be your queen let me treat  you that way Get loose work  out Work up a sweat till you fall  out I'm in the mood for love So we  can play house I'll treat you like Julius Caesar Best to bet that I'll treat you like a king, ring a  ding ding Just call me up  'cause it ain't nothing but the real thing Dazin'glazin',  so amazin' Snugger than a  bug in a rug So let's get  crazy

 

Head, Anyone?

2012-01-18T10:45:00.000-08:00

Head. Give. Get. Take. Ask or Not.

DISCLAIMER: This is a touchy subject and I thought long and hard (no pun intended) about stimulating this conversation amongst adults but I deem it necessary. Again, this is only one interpretation that should offer some assistance and thought to all parties. Some will agree and others will disagree – all are ok and accepted. This is a two sided conversation and is more than the initial attention grabber. Please take into consideration that this conversation is meant for mature adults that can handle all verbiage being used. Thank you and shall we proceed.

Speak into the mic, just kiss it or lick it a little bit, puff the pipe – it won’t make you choke, say hello to my lil friend (yes some are smaller than others), blow the whistle, it won’t get hard if you don’t help it out, or simply can I get some head? All said while trying to guide head to head. I am sure that there are several ladies that could create a list that would both be ridiculous and ironic. It is amazing the things that some men come up with saying in order to get some “head”. I do not understand some men’s desire or need to ask for some head, penis suckage or fellatio.

There is nothing wrong with a little head. We all like to receive it but honestly we don’t all like to give it. Most importantly there are women that don’t always think that it is the sexiest thing to do. Some like it, love, adore it, can’t stand it and would rather just do it regular. Generally the point of us hooking up would be for enjoyment unless you’re selfish which many are (both sides). It should not have to be negotiated after all, we all profess to be adults right? Don’t get me wrong I get it. I understand that it feels good and possibly looks very sexy to feel the warmth and wetness along with the softness of her lips along your man muscle. The pleasure of laying back, relaxing and not having to take control of the sexual situation. I get it. I also understand that is a part of sex and yes I like it done to me of course when done correctly. Both, like less biting and teeth used – we agree. However, question is why ask or why are you ok with asking for some head?

For some, oral sex is more intimate than actual intercourse and is a bigger leap of faith. After all its all right there and it’s your mouth and we both… well, we will just say that it is something to think about if you are a not so clean person. We don’t always ask the necessary questions outside of are you disease free. Does she brush her teeth or take care of her mouth – does he use soap and clean down under his balls? And vice versa. I mean really – we all need to be a bit more selective and more concerned. The world is a very crazy place these days. {JUST A THOUGHT – you cannot suck or lick on every or anybody}. Then there is the matter of what am I getting out of the deal especially if we are not a long term situation? Seriously, after you nut, if you get to that point, do you have come back, is that it, will you be returning the favor and do you expect this all the time? I would like to believe that it can be more of the preliminary step, a kind of foreplay, rather than the main event and it’s not always done accordingly but each and every situation is different. Govern yourself according.

Just a few thoughts that run through mind quickly after the initial inquiry but my main point of thought is, Why are you even asking? I don’t get that. It seems like if it is going to happen it’s going to happen and it should not be expected but moreso appreciated. If we are random to each other or not necessarily exclusive what makes it be necessary. After all if it didn’t automatically happen, what makes you think that you are worth the service? Now, I don’t want to hurt any feelings or even offend anyone but did you consider that this service is given to some and only a privilege to others or that you just don’t meet the desire. A woman will initiate her desires, please believe – have you thought about that? Have you ever sat back and considered the willingness of some and the reluctance of others. Think about it!!! I have often wondered if the inquiry comes from a selfish a place or is it one of those activities that should be added to my resume under the skill section. Should a chick be flattered that you thought of her enough to ask her to suck you off or get you started? Should she feel privileged that you say that she is so good that you just want it all the time? Should she think that it is in the best interest of her health and womanhood to proceed or that you may not attracted otherwise? When you ask do you consider that you may be taking the joy or desire from her? Do you even think with your actual head before asking for head?

It’s funny that this seems to be an ongoing debate or even a conversation that is always not agreed upon. It’s one of those touchy subjects that is sometimes felt uncalled for or uncivilized. Us all being grown has nothing to do with giving or even receiving. It is the comfort to all parties involved. The real inquiry here is we don’t all think about what we are doing before we do it. We do not always take into consideration the reactions to our actions. Like a man once told me pouting, sulking and dropping hints are not good strategies when you don’t get your way. True gratification is mental so please give it some head.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #11: What's in my makeup bag

2012-01-18T00:33:00.000-08:00

Well.... everything is neccessary. Lip glosses/ Lip sticks, mascara, liners, mirror, safety pins, nail clipper and file, motrin, clear eyes, excedrin, jand sanitizer, cough drops and some perfume

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #10: Photo of MY Favorite Place To Eat

2012-01-17T11:53:00.000-08:00

ONE OF MY FAVORITE PLACES TO EAT

I love to eat and I am learning as I get older when its time to get together we (my friends) generally dont do clubs anymore (not too mention there are not very many clubs in LA that I would really want to go to but that is another story for another day). I have a few places that I frequent but as for really good food and super cool vibe not too formal. One of my favorite places to eat is Lucille's Smokehouse. Its so cool and laid back and the food surpasses comfort.

FIRST, Let me just say that whenever you go there they give you this basket of biscuits and this amazing apple butter - (DUDEDAMNIT).

Generally when we go to Lucille's we chill at the bar during their happy hour where they have these super awesome Hurricanes. I mean super awesome like back in Nawlins good and during happy hour, they're only $5 (dude).

I like their onion shoestrings that come with this tangy barbeque ranch (OHMYGRACIOUS). There are plenty of other great appetizers on their menu such as fried green tomatoes, fried pickles, Smoke trip Tip Quesedillas (SHUTUP). As far as the main course... I love their Blackened Catfish and Smoked Salmon but they got this Brisket that just makes you wanna...

All this stuff comes with these tasty sides such as these cheese grits and their greens are actually pretty good. There are good sandwhiches and burgers too. I am not a huge fan but they have sweet potatoe fries that I hear are good but they're not my thing. Oooooh..... they're desserts are good too. My favorite is the Snickers Ice Cream Pie or the Banana Pudding and the Bread Pudding is good.

Me, He & She (reblog inspired by My Love by Jill Scott)

2012-01-17T10:29:00.000-08:00

Me, He & She

Me + He = We. We were once a good team. We were sweet, simple and somewhat stimulating. We crossed paths at a good time. Our rekindled flame took off fast and was completely unexpected. There was a level of comfort that seemed instant that lead to everyday. The “it” factor was absolutely evident. Our infatuation was wonderfully creative with sweet creaminess of cherry vanilla ice cream.

My love is deeper, tighter, sweeter, higher, flyer, didn’t you know this or didn’t you notice

Our connection was deeper than anticipated. We laughed, conversed and made the time without boundaries. There weren’t too many limits. He said that he liked that there was no red tape-no bullshit with me, no need to sneak – day/night to midnights with some drunken stupors. You know that drunken alcohol induced sex that was sweat funky and nastily intense. Especially spectacular. We were good, cool, sexy… Then he changed his mine. It was his prerogative to no longer want me or to be a “we”.

My love is deeper, tighter, sweeter, higher, flyer, didn’t you know this or didn’t you notice

She’s not as simple. She has baggage. She is somewhat insecure, though he may have made her that way. She is not as stimulating so he says. She is all the things that he claimed not to want, so he says. She snoops. She tried to find something and anything when there may or may not be nothing. She goes through his stuff. She complains, sometimes petty and mildly confrontational. He says he is not all the way happy with she but she has been there and has gone through some things. He and she are still a “we”. She’s the one that puts up with his shit in order to be a “we”. The same shit that was not for me. All the bad with all the good. He is not always so good to she but she deals to have he. He and she but then there’s always the thought me.

My love is deeper, tighter, sweeter, higher, flyer, didn’t you know this or didn’t you notice

So, in all honesty, there is a diminutive part of me that wants he but more so in the concept of what we had before she. He always felt real good kind of like crown royal on ice. It went down smooth and easy. Mmm, mmm, mmm good with a side of finger licking and ass smacking. The ideas of me and he make me warm and tingly. He sure did smell good. He just runs cross my mind sometimes – how we use to ooooh… yeah and kiss this and this and this and this and this and this and this and that. We shared climaxes and indulged in a plethora of oohs and aahs to tempos of E sharp (exciting) on a very regular basis. Damn remembering when we…

She is not me nor does he want me. No competitions necessary. He is not for me and the reality is that She has He and He wants to be with She more than the piece of he that desires me. I like that he sometimes wants a piece of me. Truth is that He was never really good for me but I often think of how we use to be.

Never allow someone to be your priority when they make you their option.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #9: A Photo of the Last Item I Purchased

2012-01-16T23:07:00.000-08:00

THE LAST ITEM THAT I PURCHASED IS A THIS A BAG THAT I AM CURRENTLY USING AS MY LAPTOP BAG. I purchased this bag last week from Old Navy. It was an awesome deal. It was 14.99 with 50% off = $7.49 with an additional 10% off The Final Cost - 6.49 and my ;aptop fits comfortably in it with some other personal items inclusive.

I love this bag and at this cost #WINNING

30 Day Blog Challenge #8: A Song & Photo to match MY mood

2012-01-15T15:30:00.000-08:00

A Song & Photo to Match MY Mood

There has been so much on my mind and sometimes I just get so lost all in my head. I've had a lot on my mind. Thinking that I am a grown ass woman and there are some decisions and choices that I need to make to improve my quality of life. I am excited that their is choice of happiness. Anyway, I laid around my house thinking, feeling and reminising. I love Jill Scott and its always fitting that her words speak to my spirit.

http://youtu.be/x6ofNozL1t8?hd=1

"When I Wake Up"

Too much on my mind
Too much on my mind
Too much on my mind
Too much on my... La la la la la la la la la
Here I am thinking again
All lost in my brain
But I know I should get up and get out of it
I gotta keep moving
But here I am lost all up inside my brain
Can't stop thinking, reminiscing.
Can't stop. Can't let go.
But when I wake up,
And one day I will do it,
I have let you go

Nd everything I went through was beautiful
I have let you go
And everything I went through was beautiful
Maybe I, right now, can't see the forest full of trees
So lost behind hurt
But I'm trying everyday exponentially
To move forward
O you know how it feels to be lost?
But when I wake up
Everything I went through would be beautiful
When I wake up
And I will wake up
It's gonna be beautiful
Down to to my left side (Last cry)
Feeling I could fly (Feeling I could fly)
All day, up high.
Sweeter than the sugar on a cinnamon treat
Or an ice cream
That was me
But I'm feeling like I'm in a nightmare
Fear of loving somebody, everywhere
Oh Lord, I need this confirmation, this affirmation
That when I wake up
Hen I wake up
Everything I went through will be beautiful
When I wake up
Everything I went through will be beautiful
Gotta wake up
Gotta wake up
Gotta wake up
Gotta wake up

Random Relationship Thoughts...

2012-01-14T22:57:00.000-08:00

If you love me and you want to be with me. You love me with all my faults… truly believe in what we are developing. What is the problem with letting me in your heart...fully?

Here I am – nakedly me with all my potential.

Where are you?

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #7: My Dream Wedding...

2012-01-14T11:54:00.000-08:00

I don't really have a dream wedding.

I just want to be in love and married with forever being our foundation.

I do want a really nice ring and a very awesome kitchen. I am still figuring the forever part means that we do not have to go into our marriage in debt due to our wedding but if money was no object and in my fantasy world, it would be grand and the presentation would be spectacular.

I want the man (marriage and it not be so much about the wedding). Realistically, I want to be married at my church in a simply awesome WHITE dress, BLUE shoes as my something blue, my mother would give me something NEW and I would BORROW something from my grandmother. We would take communion, light the unity candle and jump the broom.

Initmate Reception with good food, good music and close friends and family. Open Champagne/ Wine Bar (maybe).

Simple. However folks that know me know that I am FLASHY so, there would be some sort of unique attribute like a dessert bar, special cocktail and/or special video tribute, photo booth. It's all in the presentation.

Simple and Elegant.

There will be no electric slide at my wedding.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #6: A photo of animal you'd love to keep as a pet?

2012-01-13T09:53:00.000-08:00

A Photo of an ANIMAL

that I'd like to keep as a pet.

----------HIM RIGHT THERE--------------------------->>>>>

Seeing as though I am not really a dog person I would like to change it up a bit and respond with Ray Lewis. In my head he is more than animal. He is a beast (BEAST). If given the opportunity I would hold him and hug him and just...him. Yes!!!

and that is that.

thank you and good night (day).

30 Day Challenge #5: A photo of ME 2 years ago

2012-01-12T11:09:00.000-08:00

2 years ago I turned 30. It was quite the stir around this place (my blog). I recall that it was quite the conflict of interest fo rme. I had initially planned an awesome weekend where a bunch of my friends would come to Atlanta but 4 months prior my daddy died and I lost my job. SO needless to say I wasnt really going to do anything for my birthday but that was short lived. I ended up doing a dinner at Legal Seafood with several close friends. In the picture above I had several of their famous Sangrias which taste kind of like Hawaiian Punch with a kick. The kick showed its fave somewhere round #5. It was a good night.

30 Day Challenge #4: My favorite photo of my Bestfriend

2012-01-11T14:37:00.000-08:00

I couldnt really decide without putting her all out on blast which is not any of your business. This is my Bestfriend. She is my everything friend. #thatisall

Wednesday's Words & Lyrics: Brown Skin by India Arie

2012-01-11T09:34:00.000-08:00

"Brown Skin"

Brown skin, you know I love your brown skin
I cant tell where yours begins, I cant tell where mine ends
Brown skin, up against my brown skin
Need some every now and then:oh hey:

Where are your people from? Maybe Mississippi or an Island
Apparently your skin has been kissed by the sunYou make me want a Hershey's kiss, your licorice

Every time I see your lips, it makes me think of honey-coated chocolateYour kisses are worth more than gold to me
I'll be your almond joy, you'll be my sugar daddy

Brown skin, you know I love your brown skinI cant tell where yours begins, I cant tell where mine ends
Brown skin, up against my brown skin
Need some every now and then:oh hey:

Every time you come around, something magnetic pulls me and I cant get out
Disoriented, I cant tell my up from down
All I know is that I wanna lay you down

Every time I let you in, abracadabra magic happens as we swim
Higher and higher finally we reach heaven
Come back to earth and then we do it all again
Yeah:..

Brown skin, you know I love your brown skin
I cant tell where yours begins, I cant tell where mine ends
Brown skin, up against my brown skinNeed some every now and then:oh hey:

Skin so brown, lips so round
Baby how can I be down?
Beautiful mahogany, you make me feel like a queenTell me what's that thing you do that makes me wanna get next to you, yeah

Brown skin, you know I love your brown skin
I cant tell where yours begins, I cant tell where mine ends
Brown skin, up against my brown skin
Need some every now and then:oh hey:

Brown skin, you know I love your brown skin
I cant tell where yours begins, I cant tell where mine ends
Brown skin, up against my brown skin
Need some every now and then:oh hey:

Freckles Thought for THIS Day... Uncertain Times

2012-01-10T16:29:00.000-08:00

Freckles' Thought for This Day...

We are all going through something in one form or another. Who am I to say that my situation is worst than yours or is harder. That is just not fair. I have noticed that while going through things people like to say it could always be worst. However what happens when I'm at my worst? What Now? I read this and was immediately convicted. I have been in a woe is me more than a few times not concerned about what the next person or a person across the country may be feeling or dealing with. I am reminded that my faith is sufficient and that there are always angels of mercy around me praying for me or just simply helping me. How awesome is that to just be thought of? So even if you faith is weak or you are not quote a believer, I hope that you take something from this or at least know that you are not the only one going through.

Be Encouraged Today!!!

WE live in uncertain times. Both the news and our personal situations may fill us with anxiety. Recently while I was recovering from back surgery and the complications of an infection, my company eliminated my job. I wondered how is my family going to survive until I get a new job. What will happen to our plans for the future?

My mother and many friends reminded me that I was on their prayer circle's list of concerns and that God hears the prayers of the righteous, those who want to be close to God and try to live their life accordingly. People I did not even know were praying for me.

I began to see that God's blessings were flowing to me through many people, some I never would have imagined. A friend reminded me that God created all things good. God continues to create, and all things will be good again. Each time uncertainty creeps in; I remind myself that God is all-loving, all-powerful, and all-knowing. God is ever present at the potter's wheel, using our good times and bad to mold us into the people God wants us to be.

Mark H. Anderson (Pennsylvania, USA)

Prayer: In you, O God of hope and joy, all things came into being, including each of us. Help us to be mindful of your presence and to walk with you in hope and faith, seeking your will, not our own. Amen.

30 Day Challenge #3: My Favorite Store

2012-01-10T14:30:00.000-08:00

I dont really know that I hav ea favorite store right now. I am currently working at Old Navy and as of lately we have been having some amazing things and great colors. Honestly, I have been terribly responsible and havent really been doing much shopping but should I come into a windfall of money my favorite thing is shoes and I love love love DSW.

30 Day Challenge #2: A photo of something that I ate today

2012-01-09T19:23:00.000-08:00

What did I eat today... Chicken and Roasted Tomato Pasta. It was actually very made up. I greilled some chicken breat the other day and cut it up for some tacos. I ran out of tortillas so I needed to make sure the chicken didn"t go bad so I used what was in the cabinet and WAAALAAA! It was good but I did go a little to hard with the cayenne but good nonetheless.

Take Off Your Cool (to Him inspired by Outkast: Speakerbox/The Love Below)

2012-01-09T08:40:00.000-08:00

Take Off Your Cool – Andre 3000 (OutKast) f. Norah Jones

Baby, take off your cool